A Little Reminder

An email I wrote, but it didn't send because the recipient's email was deleted lol. Thought it would be a waste if it just sat in my email account. Hooray for blogs and new beginnings.

So I heard you are telling people that you broke up with me! ..which is weird because that's not the way I remember it at all! In fact the way I remember it is I broke up with you and you tried for more than a month afterwards to change and fix things so that I would get back together with you.

If convincing people that you were the one who just had enough of me and that you had any semblance of control over anything is a part of your recovery process, I'm okay with that. I just want to make sure you've not gone completely retarded, and that you actually know you're lying to people. Definitely the only mistakes that are worth making are the ones you actually fucking remember, and I definitely would not be surprised to find out you've convinced yourself that your "you broke up with me" fantasy is actually true.

So, no, it's not true.





Also, I made the mistake the first time of not entirely blocking your messages. I made it so that every message I got from you went to the trash, so I thought it was deleted, but it turns out they were still accessible. Apparently I needed to delete it permanently. So that's what I'll be doing after I send this email.

I skimmed over one of them and noticed that you asked me why I didn't tell you or hint to you that I was planning on, or open to the idea of, getting back together with you. The reason, which should be obvious to you by now, is that you should have changed yourself regardless of whether or not you knew we were going to get back together in the end. If you would have tried harder because I told you we would get back together, it really shows how much dedication you have to yourself and us in a relationship. But I'm glad I didn't, because I would still probably be dealing with your shit if I had.

But yeah, I was open to it. Was.

Anyway, I don't really care if you reply to this lol, I won't get it. Just wanted you to know that I actually broke up with you. If you ever forget that or warp it in your mind somehow, you are never going to change a thing.