Linear Algebra

I'm sitting in my Linear Algebra class. It's about 8:05 and he's still not anywhere to be found. It's been two classes in a row that he's canceled. So I'm getting a little concerned lol. He seems like he might be the type to have smoked, or maybe still does smoke, so it wouldn't surprise me if the guy is in the hospital receiving chemotherapy.

That's mean to say, I really like the guy. He's a bit old fashioned in just about everything he does, but he's still a good prof. Almost every day he's got a funny anecdote to beer or ending class early because the day ends with a "y". Definitely a different teaching style than I've ever seen.

In the amount of time it's taken me to write this, it's been 2 minutes, and it's about 8:07, and people are starting to leave. Maybe it's time for me to part with this class today.

Until lunch time.

Quantum Computing

I read a badass article today on Reddit. Basically, someone asked /r/askscience for clarification on quantum computing. In the comments the discussion turned to the capabilities of quantum computing and it's potential reach using the "qubit" or quantum bit.

The difference between a qubit and a classical bit is the states they are allowed to be in. A computer works by 1's and 0's, literally this is the on and off state of a bit. A qubit can be in three different states: on, off, and an undetermined state of both. This is a game changer.



Although quantum computers won't be the ultimate gaming machines, they will change the world of security and mathematics. They are so mathematically powerful, they have the ability to "brute-force" large encryption keys using special algorithms many times faster than classical computing.

Everything that runs through secure connections online, like buying things with your credit card, rely on the premise that other people will not be able to crack your encrypted tunnel. Almost every single form of security online would need to change once quantum computers are built and advanced. Quantum computers would be able to crack through 128-bit keys as quickly as your classical computer can use it. It's pretty amazing.

From what I understand, quantum computers are also able to use mathematical algorithms that were not before possible by classical computers. That means they'd be able to use formulas to break certain encryptions, where brute-force attacking was the only option before.



A lot of this is speculative for me. I don't really know what the implication of a qubit in quantum computing means, because in the nature of the large scale, we have no idea what it means to be in the "on" and "off" state at the same time. All I know is that big changes are coming because of the study of quantum physics.

Pic related. It's a preliminary quantum computer.

Schrödinger can suck it.

I think I'm gonna start writing every day at lunch or something. That seems to be the time of the day I have the most time. Kinda relaxed too, especially since at that time I have just eaten, and I'm in a better mood.

I installed this really awesome writing app that builds itself right into Chrome. It's just a basic writing app that types in plaintext, withut bold, italic, or anything. It's called Writer. Anyway, it makes it really easy to just type out things that are in my head.

I can easily see how the Chromebook would work, as long as you're not a media developer, you've pretty much got all the things you need on the internet.. or in the case of Chromebook, on the browser. Apps like Writer really prove the capabilities of browsers.

So that's a tangent to be continued.



Worked a lot on physics today. Had a quiz. Literally, every single quiz I take in that class rapes me. I come out of that class feeling genuinely violated. The topics we cover in that class are out of this world. To say that I've never been acclimated to the level of thinking required to succeed in that class is painfully obvious. I know I study five times more than any of the other assholes in that class, but I'm still producing the work of an average student. Then again, this is my first REAL physics class. Everything else has been math, which I'm good at. But actually applying the math, and thinking about things critically, that's a different story.

Today on the quiz we dealt with differentiation. Now, I know what you're thinking. Differentiation is easy. Yeah, it is.. but applying variable transformations to fucking Schrödinger's equations by taking multiple implicit derivatives is ridiculous. I got the differentiation, but there's no way in hell I could complete the substitutions in the given 30 minutes. Most people didn't finish the quiz, but still. The people that do, I have no idea how they do it. And it really makes me mad that I am unable.

Anyway, it's that kind of shit I have to deal with every day in that class. We take simple concepts, like differentiation or multidimensional integration, and then fuck with it, warp it, and apply it in ways you'd never expect. So I will study the concepts, feel confident that I will do well on the quizzes because I know how to do the shit, and then I get a question like I did today completely out of nowhere.

The one thing that makes me not feel quite as bad is that class has a plus or minus 45% average. Which means there's gonna be a huge curve. It's a very hard class, but still, 45% is fucking horrible and I won't be satisfied.


Soooo... study, study, study. Gonna pack up, and get to differential equations. I like that class.

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Contrast

Haha, I forgot my last post was on her birthday. It's pretty interesting how good things can get, and as if by magic, you accidentally the entire relationship.

Huge contrast.

I think deleting it would be a waste. Plus, Hayden Panettiere didn't fix her tattoo. It reads "Vivere senza rimipianti", and if that isn't practicing what you preach, I don't know what is.

A Little Reminder

An email I wrote, but it didn't send because the recipient's email was deleted lol. Thought it would be a waste if it just sat in my email account. Hooray for blogs and new beginnings.

So I heard you are telling people that you broke up with me! ..which is weird because that's not the way I remember it at all! In fact the way I remember it is I broke up with you and you tried for more than a month afterwards to change and fix things so that I would get back together with you.

If convincing people that you were the one who just had enough of me and that you had any semblance of control over anything is a part of your recovery process, I'm okay with that. I just want to make sure you've not gone completely retarded, and that you actually know you're lying to people. Definitely the only mistakes that are worth making are the ones you actually fucking remember, and I definitely would not be surprised to find out you've convinced yourself that your "you broke up with me" fantasy is actually true.

So, no, it's not true.





Also, I made the mistake the first time of not entirely blocking your messages. I made it so that every message I got from you went to the trash, so I thought it was deleted, but it turns out they were still accessible. Apparently I needed to delete it permanently. So that's what I'll be doing after I send this email.

I skimmed over one of them and noticed that you asked me why I didn't tell you or hint to you that I was planning on, or open to the idea of, getting back together with you. The reason, which should be obvious to you by now, is that you should have changed yourself regardless of whether or not you knew we were going to get back together in the end. If you would have tried harder because I told you we would get back together, it really shows how much dedication you have to yourself and us in a relationship. But I'm glad I didn't, because I would still probably be dealing with your shit if I had.

But yeah, I was open to it. Was.

Anyway, I don't really care if you reply to this lol, I won't get it. Just wanted you to know that I actually broke up with you. If you ever forget that or warp it in your mind somehow, you are never going to change a thing.